If i were to tell my story in a certain way most of you would be wiping away tears of sympathy by the time I got to the end. I’m not gonna lie, some episodes have been pretty rough. Having said that, I can promise you that the way I actually tell my story usually makes people say ‘God loves you’ instead. While it’s fact that I’ve been through some tough stuff, what is truth is that every time I’ve called out to Him, God has come through for me. Yes, you read that right. Every. Single. Time.
This is not to say that I am immune to crises of faith – I’m not. I went through a period of several years where not only did I doubt the Bible, but the idea of a personal god seemed nonsensical to me, and don’t even get me started on what I thought about prayer as an effective anything, let alone a weapon. Yet, here I am, full almost to bursting with awe and wonder at how God has loved me.
What does this have to do with Proverbs 3? Stick with me.
As you know from my last posting, I’ve been struggling to write this post. Imma tell the truth about why: I didn’t want to write honestly because I felt that would be revealing too much about myself. And, as a result, I found that I couldn’t write at all. I tried and tried and failed time and again till I had to say ‘yes Lord’ and stop fighting.
What I didn’t want to share is this:
At the beginning of this year, the Holy Spirit led me to Proverbs 3, in particular this verse:
Trust in the Lord your God and lean not on your won understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight
The reason I didn’t want to share that is because I’m vain and I felt like that verse is too common for me to say it’s my verse for 2015. There were actually two verses and perhaps I’ll share the other one day. For today though, and for the purposes of this post, that one is enough.
Trusting the Lord in all your ways is easier said than done. However, if we do that, life really does become maybe not easier but definitely simpler. When you trust God you worry less, you should become less anxious and less fearful, understanding that your paths are being straightened, that all things are working together for your good. It means that everything you do, everything you think, is measured against God’s will and submitted to Him. It means letting go of what you want to do and not seeking your own will, but seeking at all times to be in the will of God. Not only that though, the verse speaks of trust and that is not easy because at every turn Satan seeks to subvert the will of God and each day, each decision we make is a fight to trust in God. Not easy. It requires mindfulness and a constant vigilance against anxiety, against fear, against all those desires that have not been submitted to the Most High. Not easy. But, what joy when we live this way, what freedom!
And so, Proverbs 3 is about trusting, about the wisdom of giving control to the Lord and not seeking our own way.
The rest of Proverbs 3 is pretty straightforward and I won’t go into it. I suggest you read it through and think prayerfully about its application.
Stay blessed, and here’s to trusting God and finding wisdom.
P.S. did I mention that every other time I tried to write a Proverbs 3 post something happened to make me quit and ‘save as draft’? My bible app would refuse to open or my keyboard would go laggy making me wanting to scream in frustration. One time I even fell asleep, tablet in hand. Coincidence? Perhaps. But I think it’s because I wasn’t writing what I was supposed to and so the Father in His infinite wisdom made it extremely difficult to follow through. This time, once I committed to writing, everything went smoothly. That is trusting God and acknowledging Him in all my ways, right up to and including the posts I write for this blog. It is amazing how even those smallest paths are straightened, isn’t it?